All or Nothing?

In the past I've struggled a lot with an all or nothing mentality. 

This way of thinking has been what has sabotaged my progress so many times. 

Last week I had a very stressful day. 

My sons bedtime was coming up and I didn't have anything prepared for dinner 

so I just went and picked up a pizza.
I was "good" and only got one large pizza...
ya know, instead of the family deal with all the fixins'...

See, pizza is a trigger food for me
I can't just eat one slice
I've had such bad binges with pizza that one time,
after bingeing on half a pizza,
I had a moment of strength and I threw an entire pizza away
only to find myself 3 hours later...
standing over the trash trying to justify
taking the pizza out of the trash and devouring it! 
So, Victory #1 = Only getting one pizza!

 So, When I got home I grabbed my usual 3 large slices and headed for the couch.
Ahhhhh... hello old friend!

Half way through eating my second slice I realized I was full.
The concept of stopping when I'm full is new to me... 

I realized I had a decision to make about who I am now...

Am I the same old Ashley that already made one bad choice,
so she might as well keep going and eat half the pizza?
OR
Am I the new Ashley that knows that one slip doesn't mean
I need to willingly jump off the ledge and go head first into binge mode!

So, Victory #2 I put my third slice back. 

My third and finally victory came after I put my son to bed. 

It was 8:03 PM and I had exactly 2,456 steps 

(just a tad shy of my 10,000 steps a day goal). 

I felt like just going to bed and making it up later....

 but I didn't! I had a dance party instead!

I turned my music up and got my feet moving.... 

At first it was the most pathetic dance party. I was NOT feeling it....

At 7,000 steps I wanted to quit so badly!!! I was "going to die"

But I didn't. I kept going until I got my 10,000 steps. 

Then I thought - I can keep going....

I decided that this was a perfect time to prove to myself
just how far I'd come...
I didn't think I'd make it to 10,000.... so I went to 12,000 instead!
Victory #3 - Showing myself how amazing I really am!

I'm learning that it doesn't have to be all or nothing! 

We don't need to punish ourselves with multiple bad choices 

because of one bad choice. 

We put so much pressure on ourselves
to be perfect!
Guess what? We're not going to be
perfect, not in this life at least.
We are going to mess up but...
it's NOT all or nothing...
It is the best we can do every moment...
you had a bad morning, well,  have a good afternoon
you ate doughnuts at work...? Doesn't mean you have to
let the whole day go!

I am perfectly imperfect, 

I will make bad choices, 

I will fall down, 

but I will get up and keep going!

Do you struggle with all or nothing mentality?