Accountability Partner

Yesterday morning I got on the scale

I had the same reaction I had every morning since Thanksgiving

"What?!?!"

After a week of good eating I was still the same exact weight 

It was frustrating. 

To top it off, it was the day of my first Christmas party. 

This was a party that was catered by Famous Dave's BBQ

My absolute most favorite restaurant.. and I could get it for free!

I had planned to splurge. 

I had planned for this to be the day I allowed myself to cheat. 

But, did I want to spend another week getting back down 

to the same weight I was right then? ugh!

I had a lot of anxiety about it. 

I had a call with Jacqui and I tell her about my fears

She suggests a solid plan and I agreed to do it

Get meat only, over salad, skip the calorie rich sides

...like Jalapeno Mac and Cheese (yummmy!)

And either skip the dessert bar 

or

bring my own dessert that I know I can eat.

She is keeping me accountable

I was to take a picture of my plate and text her

It's not about feeling deprived, but about feeling empowered she says. 

I trust her. 

I trust her with all my heart. 

I get off the phone with her. 

I sit in a chair.

I whine to my husband. A lot. 

I was seriously having anxiety over the whole situation. 

The dinner finally arrives. 

I get in line for food. 

I pass up the Mac and Cheese. 

That felt good!

I pass up the Mashed Potatoes. 

That felt awesome!

I get the meat, two kinds of meat...

I get my salad

There is corn bread. 

We didn't talk about corn bread. 

I love their corn bread. 

What should I do. 

I grab a half a piece. 

I take my photo. 

I send it to her. 

I eat. 

I get full. 

I'm satisfied. 

The corn bread was like my dessert. 

I enjoy the people instead of thinking of the food. 

I was so happy with myself. 

I leave the party. 

I go home. 

I am so incredibly happy with myself. 

This is typically the time that I'm loathing myself for making bad choices. 

This is typically the time I'm full of regrets. 

But instead I was proud of myself. 

So proud that I said it out loud. 

The first thing I learned: 

Food comes and goes. 

What I put in my mouth is a moment in time. 

I won't always remember the taste of the food

but I will remember how I felt about myself

Sometimes its hard to say no

But the satisfaction, the empowerment, the feeling you have about yourself

When you choose yourself over food or whatever it is you're battling

It is so worth that moment. 

Bad decision led me to 355lbs

Bad decision led me to self hatred

I'm not perfect now

But gosh darn it I'm proud of myself. 

The second thing I learned: 

Having an accountability partner is priceless

If I didn't have someone

that believed in my potential 

who cared enough to prepare a plan for me

I may have slipped. 

There was temptation everywhere, but on the other end of my phone

was someone who believed in my potential and I didn't want to let her down

As the night went on, and I began to feel empowered by my decision,

I didn't want to let myself down

So remember as you are going to holiday parties to have a plan

and find someone to be your accountability partner! 

Trust me

You will feel empowered!

The result of my good choices

Showed on the scale

Come back on Monday to see!