I'm a Fighter

Hey Ya'all! 

So something has been brewing in the background here at LPI 

As I've told you before, this year has been hard...

like, REALLY hard

I've gained back a lot of the weight I lost in Nov/Dec

At the end of the 2013 I was 311

Yesterday I weighed in at 336... ouch!

I've really felt a lot of shame

and as many times as I've tried to come out of hiding

My food addiction has gotten the best of me

and I've just kept going back to the dark hole

But my page is Living Perfectly Imperfect

I didn't name it that because I'm perfect at living imperfectly

I named it that because that's what how I'm striving to live

I want to be okay with all my imperfections

I want to not be my worst critic

But, I'm not perfect and its a daily struggle to be okay with my imperfections

It's not as if I feel like someday I will be perfect

But I know someday, with a lot of practice and support

I can learn to love myself, imperfections and all, 

and to truly understand that life is a journey

and its not all-or-nothing! Baby steps count! 

I do have to say....

I am proud of myself because 

even in the midst of my darkness...

I was still fighting to come out of the darkness

One thing I DO know about myself...

I'm a Fighter! (Que Christina Aguilera....) 

I will keep fighting for what I want

because I know the only way to truly ever fail 

is to give up

so I refuse to give up!

 I refuse to be a "failure"....

So I did a lot of soul searching

Trying to figure out what I needed the most

and that was someone who could teach me how to live this way

I wanted to find someone that could teach me more about nutrition

Someone who could be my accountability partner on a regular basis

Someone I could count on to always be there for me

I found that person in Caroline Devin!

Caroline is my new nutritionist/health coach/

support system/accountability partner/therapist etc. etc. 

She is my very own transformation specialist!

She owns Serenity of Body and Mind

If you are local to Oregon, check her out...

If your not local to Oregon... check her out anyways...

She has some great information on her blog posts

http://www.serenityofbodyandmind.com

She is going to help me through my entire journey

I will be sharing what I'm working on with her

I will be using my blog as my own personal journal

I hope that I can stay present, even through the bad time

So that hopefully my struggles can help others

Don't worry, I still have Jacqui backing me up

But, for those of you who are living under a rock

and don't know...

Jacqui has a miracle baby growing in her tummy

Plus she lives on the other side of the country

You can never have enough people helping you along your journey

I'm lucky enough to have gotten so much good information from Jacqui

and I continue to learn from her and keep in touch

Caroline is just another great person that I have in my corner

Thanks for sticking with me friends!